if ignorance is an epidemic then stupidity must be a pandemic

Ahh another… day. I have this problem, it’s called a girl. See my whole life I’ve for the most part haven’t cared much about who I have relationships with I mean the after effects of what I’ve done. Or how I’ve left the “heart broken” and all that jazz. Or how I left bruises or scars or a ruined friend ship or a few or all these horrible things. But, after this last time it’s like I can’t let go. It’s as if I had to move from West Virginia all over again, It’s like I’ve moved on so much that I want to stay. The only problem is that altho the feeling is mutual her friends feelings mean more then mine…How sad is that. I guess I typically take what I want when I want it like a virginity or 2 here and there… Well, there’s no reason for you all to me reading about my personal life but, besides football practice, wrestling practice and sex I don’t have much to do here in the damn desert. And thus haven’t much to talk about. I wish it hadn’t happened, I wish it could be that easy, I wish it could be all to simple for once. But, that could never happen now could it.

How do I get back there to,The place where I fell asleep inside you? That, that is how I feel, how sad is that ? I’d be impressed if anyone knew those lyrics… Anyway, those aren’t good lyrics either. But, it shows you where I really am right now. I think everything will be okay but sometimes I want… Something and I’ve tried a lot it’s just as if I wont be better. But, I still want to kill someone I mean that legitimately that’s why I’m joining the navy. I want to feel what that feels like to take a life. So, I suppose there’s a lot wrong right now but that’s what I’ve been expecting, waiting for it to explode. Waiting, for my life to… do something and I suppose this isn’t what was suppose to happen but it did. I want to tattoo my self, that sounds good. And in all this my mom doesn’t say it’s bad but for me to wait to think it through, No see when you think it through you have time to think of all the consequences. I prefer to not look at those or even think about them.EVER.

I love Frank Sinatra, just love his voice it’s very soothing he’s an amazing artist. I also can relate to his love issues… But, we’re not going to get into that. Anyway, I’ve not been sleeping either, which with the physical activity that I per form I should sleep. You think that I’d care more about that too… But I don’t. Sleeping is for the ones that are tired, and that’s not something I am. You know what I’m going sky diving soon, so I’m pretty excited about that. Who doesn’t want to jump out of a plane and free fall for roughly 5 minutes and solely depend on a unfold able material from a backpack like device. That fits my death wish right about now. I think after that I’ll go hot air ballooning…

I’ve been reading hindu scripture on and off in the recent the Bhagavad Gita. Very nice vivid scripture… and with that I leave you

“If the radiance of a thousand suns were to burst at once into the sky, that would be like the splendor of the mighty one…” – The song of God “Bhagavad Gita”

Omega Out.