if ignorance is an epidemic then stupidity must be a pandemic

Ahh another… day. I have this problem, it’s called a girl. See my whole life I’ve for the most part haven’t cared much about who I have relationships with I mean the after effects of what I’ve done. Or how I’ve left the “heart broken” and all that jazz. Or how I left bruises or scars or a ruined friend ship or a few or all these horrible things. But, after this last time it’s like I can’t let go. It’s as if I had to move from West Virginia all over again, It’s like I’ve moved on so much that I want to stay. The only problem is that altho the feeling is mutual her friends feelings mean more then mine…How sad is that. I guess I typically take what I want when I want it like a virginity or 2 here and there… Well, there’s no reason for you all to me reading about my personal life but, besides football practice, wrestling practice and sex I don’t have much to do here in the damn desert. And thus haven’t much to talk about. I wish it hadn’t happened, I wish it could be that easy, I wish it could be all to simple for once. But, that could never happen now could it.

How do I get back there to,The place where I fell asleep inside you? That, that is how I feel, how sad is that ? I’d be impressed if anyone knew those lyrics… Anyway, those aren’t good lyrics either. But, it shows you where I really am right now. I think everything will be okay but sometimes I want… Something and I’ve tried a lot it’s just as if I wont be better. But, I still want to kill someone I mean that legitimately that’s why I’m joining the navy. I want to feel what that feels like to take a life. So, I suppose there’s a lot wrong right now but that’s what I’ve been expecting, waiting for it to explode. Waiting, for my life to… do something and I suppose this isn’t what was suppose to happen but it did. I want to tattoo my self, that sounds good. And in all this my mom doesn’t say it’s bad but for me to wait to think it through, No see when you think it through you have time to think of all the consequences. I prefer to not look at those or even think about them.EVER.

I love Frank Sinatra, just love his voice it’s very soothing he’s an amazing artist. I also can relate to his love issues… But, we’re not going to get into that. Anyway, I’ve not been sleeping either, which with the physical activity that I per form I should sleep. You think that I’d care more about that too… But I don’t. Sleeping is for the ones that are tired, and that’s not something I am. You know what I’m going sky diving soon, so I’m pretty excited about that. Who doesn’t want to jump out of a plane and free fall for roughly 5 minutes and solely depend on a unfold able material from a backpack like device. That fits my death wish right about now. I think after that I’ll go hot air ballooning…

I’ve been reading hindu scripture on and off in the recent the Bhagavad Gita. Very nice vivid scripture… and with that I leave you

“If the radiance of a thousand suns were to burst at once into the sky, that would be like the splendor of the mighty one…” – The song of God “Bhagavad Gita”

Omega Out.

Alright, so if you’ve ever been through New York at night you’ll uncerstand where I’m comming from. New York at night is great, it’s like a fat ugly chick, in the day time well my god, but when you turn off the lights all is good. New York, is a shit hole. New York I really don’t know much about. It’s very intresting I mean people flock there yearly because it’s so great or the shopping is amazing or a big glowing ball in a big city throughly doused in lights. California is so much better. But it’s your opinion.

“ignorance is bliss, be you it’s all you’ve got.”

     Alright here’s something that’s bound to piss people off. Rachel’s Challenge. That’s BULLSHIT, it’s complete and total crap. Listen first off she wouldn’t have gotten all this publicity or even gotten famous if she wasn’t killed by a bunch of emotionally fucked teens (emos) that everyone hated. Second im sick of people who couldn’t give a shit about the killers if someone had talked to them or even given a shit about them maybe they wouldn’t have done what they did. Third why dosen’t anyone care about vioence on school campusses before this, I mean apperently someone needs to kill 13 people for anyone notices that our school simple aren’t safe… or that some one has a shotgun.  Which brings me to my final point how the hell do you only kill 13 people with a shotgun and fully automatic wepon ?  I mean sure I care it’s sad but they’re not the only ones who’ve ever lost someone. I just want people to realize things before they get out of hand.

“ignorance is bliss, be you it’s all you’ve got.”