if ignorance is an epidemic then stupidity must be a pandemic

Well…well…well…I suppose I left all of you on a cliff hanger… all 2 of you… really I didn’t intentionally stop posting. I’ve become really involved in a couple of decent/ okay games, on top of that I’ve had so much work to make up. I mean I can’t emphasize enough the horrible nature of online courses… I mean courses don’t belong “online” because you well just forget about them there is so much other fun stuff you could be doing instead on the Internet…

Another thing I’ve been working on my language for 2 main purposes… first and foremost my religion. We’ve been doing the book of James and in case your not as religiously affiliated as I am James is the book where he talks about praying and cursing with the same mouth and how we really shouldn’t do it… and so on. But, the second reason is that i herd someone who speaks as poorly as I do and realized how ignorant and irritating it really is.

Really I feel a lot better and that I can do more with out it… sure it may be corny me saying this but it really dose feel good… Anyway well things have been stressful but I never stress ever… sooo I won’t have the nagging wives paper tomorrow about Kurt Vonnegut and let me tell you what he’s probably just gonna be like well I’m disappointed and I’ll be like well what ever my Isearch was 9 pages long. And so on.

I also need my teachers to update my ed-line because I need to know what to study for and what to bomb… yeah poor ethic but it works…

sorry I haven’t been posting or reading posts or commenting but I will asap. oh I found a new quote so I’ll see if it works and so on.

“you’re only as healthy as your thoughts are sane.” - K.Trout

first off I can’t promise that all these pretain to my life, but I like all of them. I didn’t say these were all I liked eithor cause I enjoy way for then rough 30ish tracks. Anyway I’ll try to explain as best as I can:

Well as I rite this I can’t see it so im not sure if it will even work… So really it’s hard to explain tracks if you can’t see them… Sorry je regrette, mesiuor Lilly haha or mere Lilly

Photo by : Jason Lilly

     What if I were to tell you that those clouds back there are at war? Would you believe me? Probley not. But, I guess that’s your problem. Those clouds have been at war for well about 2000 years now. Now they don’t hate each other, but all in all i think it was what they ultimatly believed that really drove them to fight. Before it was a perfect communist society everyone followed in line and so on.

     See like I said, they never hated each other mainly because as a communist society they weren’t intended to live on emotions or act by them. So, the clouds would make selected pacts with humans that worked out for them both these pacts would involve things such as raining at certain times of year, or being sunny at some times of the year but the clouds would only do this if the humans promised to keep things clean for the evaporation cycle the clouds found it hard to maintain anypower if they weren’t clean on top of that more often then not the acids produced by humans burned the clouds and so on.

     Now often people would pray to the “Gods” of Greece or Rome but in all actucallity they were praying to the clouds. See the problem with the comunist clouds making pacts with humans they are reliying on their feelings as clouds (yes clouds have feelings) because humans solely relie on their “feelings” or “emotions” to act and this began to effect the clouds. See, the only reason it began to effect them because through the thousands of years the clouds had been there they haddent been exposed to this sort of living because cavemen were communists too.

      See and you can say there were other humans that weren’t commys before then…really thats not true the goverment just liked to purge people because they could not because they should everyone did their part but around the year 0 there was a man im pretty sure you all may know who didn’t follow the Jews his name was Jesus. Yes the Jews are a bunch of COMMYS. Well before Jesus people had other beliefs but in all actuality they didn’t the Jews ate them and took their gold if they did.

      So, you ask why the clouds are at war well, when they had made a pact to the Jews to help out they didn’t realize they would kill Jesus. Jesus was the clouds child. The Jews prayed to Moses who was another cloud man so the clouds decided that the Jews weren’t horrible people so they helped out in purges and other miscilanius things like crop growing and so on.

     When Jesus chilled for like 30 years he set up the clouds set of beliefs But, people were like nahhh nucckkka I wanna be a people eating JEW. Well Jesus was like aight nuckkkka all yalls is gunna get killed. The Jews were all nahhhh we izaint nuckkkka. and so on.

     Well some of the clouds felt as if the Jews were right to kill jesus and others were like nahhhh fuck that and ultimately the clouds disagreed so much they went to war. See you notice the 3 hours of darkness following Jesus’s death well in all actuality the clouds tried really hard to revolt and stop them cause  Jesus was a G-UNIT THUG who smoked alot of weed and let the clouds hit his pipe. Well when it went dark it was because the clouds were like awwwww no you diddddnt’t nuckkkkkka !!  and well this went on for like 3 days and then  the Jesus clouds were like lets bounce nuckkkkkka so they took him. So, since then the JEWS and JEW clouds have been fighting the JESUS PEOPLE and JESUS CLOUDS or other wise known as muslims… wait fuck I mean americans… no I mean hicks no… well i guess americans works… whatever. More on the clouds war later.

“ignorance is bliss, be you it’s all you’ve got.”

Alright, today my nagging wife of a teacher asked what hope meant to me… well I guess I had to think about this for a second or two and other things came to me. First I thought well, if you were under the Muslim faith your hope is to kill millions of Americans to gain 72 virgins per American you kill. For Jews it’s to find that bank and make that money. For gays well I asume it’s to make the mecca to West Hollywood the truely gayest place on earth. But, for me not so much.

For me? Well I can’t say, I suppose it’s that next breath, that next thought, that next idea that will surely appear anytime now. Jesus that’s it I really guess thats my hope, I mean you can ask anyone and im not one to live a super religous life but I feel as if that is what I should or could say. Life is a hope to see new life or watch life fade, to see that things move on and progress even in bad times this I guess makes me hope.

“ignorance is bliss, be your self it’s all you’ve got.”

Alright, so if you’ve ever been through New York at night you’ll uncerstand where I’m comming from. New York at night is great, it’s like a fat ugly chick, in the day time well my god, but when you turn off the lights all is good. New York, is a shit hole. New York I really don’t know much about. It’s very intresting I mean people flock there yearly because it’s so great or the shopping is amazing or a big glowing ball in a big city throughly doused in lights. California is so much better. But it’s your opinion.

“ignorance is bliss, be you it’s all you’ve got.”

Well 5 people who are amazing:

MOM, MR.DAVIS, DOC CROUCH, MR.LILLY, STEVE

mom: well she birthed me and is just great. She’ll always be there ALWAYS even if i start to smoke crack and live with her until im 30…

mr.davis: supported me sooo much, went to bat for me, showed me the world. Still would go out of his way to help me in a time of strugle.

doc crouch: A current teacher of mine and mentor. Christian liek me keeps me strong in faith and prays with me. He’s a really great guy and an amazing teacher.

mr.lilly: really inspired me to write even though with his class I have no time to rite.

steve: my youth pastor, really I can tell him anything, he’s always positive even though I/we our group can make him mad. He’s slow to anger and just a really great guy he baptized me and

     Alright here’s something that’s bound to piss people off. Rachel’s Challenge. That’s BULLSHIT, it’s complete and total crap. Listen first off she wouldn’t have gotten all this publicity or even gotten famous if she wasn’t killed by a bunch of emotionally fucked teens (emos) that everyone hated. Second im sick of people who couldn’t give a shit about the killers if someone had talked to them or even given a shit about them maybe they wouldn’t have done what they did. Third why dosen’t anyone care about vioence on school campusses before this, I mean apperently someone needs to kill 13 people for anyone notices that our school simple aren’t safe… or that some one has a shotgun.  Which brings me to my final point how the hell do you only kill 13 people with a shotgun and fully automatic wepon ?  I mean sure I care it’s sad but they’re not the only ones who’ve ever lost someone. I just want people to realize things before they get out of hand.

“ignorance is bliss, be you it’s all you’ve got.”

YES amazment the concert last nite was amazing. I think Mr.Lilley should’ve gone it was amazing. Really my neck hurts alot but it was defintantly worth it. I also got a TON of signatures, but best of all I got to Pray with DISICPLE. I’ll tell you what, just like their music their hands are annoited. I mean most of you who will read this probley will have no idea what I’m talking about but, it’s the feeling of warms just beaming through you it was just amazing.

Alright, I have a moral construct that most fail to understand. This moral construct of mine, is a pure result of my grandmother, PhD. Patricia E. Mazzarella. This woman in all cases is Satan. Why you might ask? well, she loves her self and thinks because of her PhD from Georgetown, she has a right to fuck with peoples heads. Well, in all actuality I really do enjoy spending time with her. The thing is I hate her because, she could litterally get anyone wrapped around her finger in a madder of a conversation. She’s relentless. But, i really do love her. My family knows her so well now that, we can resist. It’s like the dark side of the force, so difficult to resist. But being an amazing ninja as I am and being such a bad ass jedi i can resist the darkside as best I can.

Anyway, this also consists of my personal moral construct. It works like so; The constitution was not written when I was there, neithor was I there when the laws were put into place. I do not have to follow these, I wasn’t there when they made them, they did not consult me. On top of which, I didn’t choose to live in this land (not saying it’s a bad thing) but, I was not allowed to flee before birth. Now that took care of the law so, now I tell you my morals right?… not so much, it’s far to complicated for a greater majority, and well frankly I believe in majority. But, I’ll break it down in simplist terms, I have a set of morals that may play out side of the law, but inside those large morals I can do anything, provided they don’t exit the morals. 

Alright that was a small taste of what goes through my head on a daily basis. See the problem is my grandmother did something similar to this but it was more american, it was more “I’m always right, because I say so.” you can’t win so eventually you deveople a set of morals that completely mind SCREW that and say what you want when you want. granit like I said earlier she is a genius. But, to live in the smae world I do you begin to not care, so this is when you make a moral construct.

See it all trickles down to my grandmother. why i have problems, my grandmother, why I typically believ what i believe because something my grand mother did, why I loath alot of things and stupid people, my grandmother. So for all the people who hate me out there really you  hate what my grandmother turned me into not me as a person.

 ”ignorance is bliss, be your self it’s all you’ve got.”

today was pretty amazing it was early out on top of the factor that we had a drug bust… The funny thing was they weren’t even slightly discrete. I mean everyone knew what was going on… sooo essencially everyone had time or nearby everybody had time to “disspose” of thier drugs. I mean the announcement went on and was like put all bag, backpacks , jackets, out side and close the door… and then they came on again 5 minutes later and was like again make sure all bags, backpacks, and jackets are outside and the doors are closed. sooo in those 5 minutes you had you could’ve hid all those drugs or dissposed of them or been sneeky and thrown them away sooo all in all i mean they got a few people but its just really stupid. apperently it takes a madder of like 12 cop cruisers and 3 k-9 units to serch a building… o well it shortend my periods even shorter soo i guess i shouldnt complain…

wow i miss night school… tonite im kind of nervous it’s the first time ive formally started my youth group at this church i hope it goes well.

anyway, not much more to say.

“ignorance is bliss, be you it’s all you’ve got.”